and Samples from
The Evil Eye
Zines By Love Beth Drew
Issue #2: Experience
Issue #3: Distortion
Issue #4: Transience
Issue #5: Fascination
Issue #6: Observation
Issue #7: Creation
featured in The Evil Eye Compilation
And What Does That Make You Then?*
want to tell you everything I ever wanted and never received and
have you fulfill their prophecies. I want to ruin you in small increments
with powdered sugar deceits..."
to the Goddess Flora
To My Polaroid Camera
away we go...*
for a Muse*
Four Pieces of Art, Four Pieces of Myself
Essay: Spontaneous Art
Essay: What Is Art?*
you get to thinking about it, yes, it would seem like an existential
question. One might as well ask, 'What Is God?' or 'Is There A Soul?'
And indeed, all three questions seem mysteriously linked..."
are no appendages left to long for when labor has been lost to such
an act of passion. The sighs heard from the once again useless rustle
the branches of the trees like wind..."
Music: PJ Harvey
Review: Book: The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine Aron
Review: Film: 'The Shape of Things'
"...It's about conclusions that I have drawn from watching the
world around me; a world that I can not deny that I am part of,
but from which I feel constantly alienated and apart..."
Prose-Poem: "Five Agujas"*
This is my Plan
Essay: The Tribe Mentality
Changing Your Dreaming*
A Page of Quotes*
Memoir: Go Vegan!
was sick of feeling like shit, so I searched for a better way. And
this is what I found..."
Memoir: Live Music (intro)
Memoir: Muse Concert
Skinny Puppy Concert
was so much going on, so much performance art and a movie and TVs...
They are so amazing..."
Poem: "Window To A Soul"
Diary Selection Intro
Diary Selection #1*
Diary Selection #2
Diary Selection #3*
"...I am walking around inside myself,
trying to crane my neck to an angle to let me see the middle of
my back in a room full of blackened mirrors. Giving away power
like bits of soggy candy..."
Diary Selection #4
"Drugs Are Bad. Right?" *
"... He slams his palms into his docile
plastic slave and forces indescribable sounds from its inner workings.
Watching talent manifest itself this way is like looking into
the face of some god..."
"listen" (for Ian Curtis and Joy Division)
Quote by Franz Kafka
Letter: Dear Sir/ Madame*
"...Bursting out of the tree of knowledge yet coiled like
a snake, you tempt and you offer, but what you offer isn't exactly
clear, and you refuse to take any responsibility for your mistakes..."
Letter: Dearest Muse
The 100 (things about me)
Ingredients for Renewal*
Memoir: Kamikaze Dive
Essay: It Was a Dream*
"...Black swirling clouds and lightning on one side of the highway,
while on the other it was nothing but puffy clouds and blue skies.
Following old Route 66, which is now little more than a foot trail
in some spots..."
Diary Selection: "Purge"
"There's something gratifying in the sensuality of a letter.
The ability to discern how you felt by the slant of your handwriting.
The texture of the paper. The yellowed postage glue..."
Prose-poem: "Communal Gardens"
Memoir: the Mudpie Vegetarian Restaurant
Tarot + Tarot Spread
Prose-poem: "Card 6: Love"
"There's something wrong with my heart...When dead, and my organ
rests on the golden scale, balanced precariously next to the feather
of truth, it will suddenly slope downwards, and get gobbled up by
the alligator-headed god. There is not Ma'at in my lifestyle..."
Interview by Danielle Baldyga
Memoir: Shaving my head
Prose-poem: "your level"
Prose-poem: "Duties of a Husbandless Wife"
"They spit out the word. "Immature." As
if it were the greatest of insults. Time is slowing down until it
goes backwards and regression becomes the fatal flaw in humanity..."
Map of Your Soul
"...The scars on your skin tell stories.
Self-inflicted or accidental, when you trace them with your fingers,
you are tracing back to a time when your body, your canvas, was
Essay: BDSM (bondage discipline sadomasochism)
Attack of the Stereotypes (A visit from the Bigot Fairy)*
How to Be A Boy in 5 Easy steps
Poem: "My Life As A Boy"
Artwork: The Rising Cost of Dating
Essay: Bearing (only) Their Souls
Essay: To Be An Ugly Stepsister
"...I could have been ugly and proud.
But now I'm just ugly. Those parts I discarded to fit in, they were
the best parts, this I know. And now I'm just left with the parts
that yearn to be what I can not be..."
Prose Poem: "snow white got nothin' on me"*
Artwork: I Look Different With Makeup On
Prose-poem: "This is a Eulogy"*
"...this is a eulogy. This is an ending
and a beginning. This is how it is, will be, is. This is not a poem
here for amusement. This is fucking serious."
Memoir: Only a Movie
Memoir: I have this on tape*
"...I just wanted to sit in a darkened
room all day hearing: Church in Hell. Assimilate. Last Rights."
Record of Dreams
The Ugly Truth
Memoir: Perspective Timeline
Prose-poem: "The Other One"
"Too hard to explain how it feels unless
you've felt it. The stinging inside, needles pushed through pores
inside out and outside in. Sitting in the filth of someone else's
Short Story: "Head Trip"
Short Story: "The LA Lock"
Soundtrack for Experience
"...it's about the spark of creativity
that no artist can do without. It's about art. It's about what
inspires me as an artist. It's about the stereotypical roles of
inspiration being acted out in the art world, and the deeper meaning
behind the concept of the Muse."
Tribute to Franz Kafka
Prose-poem: "To My Muse"*
Essay: Object of Destruction: The Purpose of the Muse in Art*
Prose-poem: "My Vice of Many"*
"...I'm caged and I'm wild and I am
dark, dark, darker still. A negative image of all you hold."
Essay: Eat Me
Essay: Like a Dog in the Street
"...some people it seems can go through
their entire lives not creating anything but more humans, garbage,
and pain. While, if you look at that as some sort of really sick
and grotesque performance art, it's not really what I think a
society should aspire to."
Review: Music: Muse
Review: Books: by Michael Redhill
Review: Film: 'Hour of the Wolf'