Souls Inside Out
Vegan Devil’s Food cake recipe
Journal Entries: Quarry Hill Park
...I thought about many unacceptable
things while on the ‘hill of course. I feel free to let
whatever thoughts come and go through my mind when I’m there.
Walking Meditation. Instead of trying to separate myself from
this world, I immerse myself in it...
Entry: "Monsters Like This"
Article: My Obsession With Pee-Wee’s Playhouse
When watching the shows back
to back in such a short amount of time, it was easy to watch
them evolve. Pee-Wee started out as an innocent little man-boy,
but by the second season, he started to get a slight attitude,
talking back to people and throwing fits, and by the end of
the third season, he was downright mischievous and rude. But
he was always Pee-Wee, and he was always there for his friends
when it mattered most. He also was there for the kids. He always
had good lessons to teach them, and his snack times were awesome.
He loved to eat fruit and veggies, and he loved to share. He
taught them how to use their imagination and make their own
toys, and of course, he taught them words. And how to scream…
A list of Happy Things
my guinea pigs, painting, getting
unexpected letters and emails, perfect avocadoes, bittersweet
chocolate, adapting a recipe to being vegan and having it turn
out great, light snowfall, oak trees, hiking at quarry hill
park, completing a long-standing project, thinking up new projects,
dancing to Bauhaus, Trent Reznor's voice, any performance by
Gary Oldman, mineral water, selling a zine, flipping through
home décor/ DIY magazines, taking a much needed nap, smoking
a Djarum Coklat cigarette, watching a favorite movie, people
remembering my birthday without props, being called inspiring,
the swirls of soymilk in a homemade cup of cocoa, writing a
poem, a bubblebath in a clean tub, hearing people speak or sing
in Romanian, daydreaming about an Eastern European vacation,
planning my dream home, having an entire day to myself, cardigan
sweaters, art therapy, erotic daydreams, foreign stamps, Franz
Kafka and his diaries, books by Alice Hoffman and Michael Redhill,
online journals, dusk, wildflowers growing in the city, decorating
postal mail for a friend, love letters, modifying clothing,
miniskirts, legwarmers, roses, non-generic people, genuine concern,
angry music, stained glass windows, chest hair, windchimes,
opportunities you can't pass up, the word "man-whore," my digital
camera, art cars, semi-precious stones, finding treasure on
the street, gel pens that don't get clogged, gardening, organic
produce, women who don't shave, vintage freakshow photographs
and stories, stupid corporate slogans used out of context, mosaics,
sidewalk chalk, sharp scissors, good hair days, clean sheets,
rosewater, orgasms, honest smiles, road trips, cloudy days,
cool nights, dark hair, starry eyes, the Minneapolis Museum
of Art, the public library, 45 RPM singles, inspiration, hardwood
floors, vocation artists, homemade buttons, self-portraits,
pianos, electrical tape, all things flamenco, overstuffed chairs,
electrical tape, swingsets, old architecture, murals, cemeteries,
"Bees are your friend!"
Short Story: "A Killing Frost"
"String Green Stripes"
..Living the way you were brought
up. Living by tradition and expectations makes you a good person.
Getting married makes you a good person. But, it’s only
just one step. I am nowhere near completion. I don’t have
the sofa with the string green stripe pattern. I actually don’t
even have a sofa...
(inspiration for issue #2)
"The wildness of our soul is the
part that will not be pacified...She lives on truth, both dark
and light. Only sedated will she cease to itch and twist inside
us, and to most of us, sedation is the easiest way. Yet here
is our creativity, in its most raw and pure form."
--Emma Restall Orr